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I leave for OBX and will be staying with Brendan and a bunch of our friends in a rental house for five whole days.
My heart hurts thinking about leaving Devin. It will be the longest time we’ve ever spent apart.
I know she will be more than well taken care of - I trust my parents and Bren’s parents undoubtedly. It’s just — she’s my baby!! Sniffle.
On the other hand, I don’t think I’ve ever been so giddy to do things I haven’t done since before Devin was born, namely SLEEP IN. I never thought I’d be so excited about sleeping lol. I can go wherever I want and do whatever I want and have ME time and let me tell you, I am the luckiest girl in the entire universe.
It’s so weird (in a good way) to have two sets of parents now who are not only willing but EXCITED to watch Devin overnight. I just never thought it would happen. I’d succumbed to the fact that Dev and I would have my parents and my sisters and that would be our family for the rest of our lives (or at least until she was grown and had her own family). I never could have imagined that these wonderful, kind, generous people would come into our world and change everything I had settled into believing would be my reality. I am so, so thankful and it makes me cry when I think about how undeniably fortunate my sweet daughter and I are.
She is growing so fast. She’s like this real little human being now, with thoughts and opinions, likes and dislikes, good moods and bad. She is incredible in ways I had only ever imagined her to be before she came into the world, and to see them come into fruition is nothing short of miraculous. How this tiny, 5 lb. 3 oz baby girl turned my life upside down in one fell swoop, I cannot explain, except to say that she is the best thing that has ever happened to me. She is life and blood and hope and humanity and I am so proud to be her mother.
Okay, now I’m on the verge of sobbing so I’m going to end it here lol.
My life is turning out to be indescribably better than I had planned.
Damnit, Jackie. Stop crying.